Have you ever given yourself to someone fully? Allow them to control your life, advice you and lead you every step of the way? It brings out the ease of doing things, someone planning everything for you; you just have to follow, not to worry about the next step. Well it’s a great feeling. But the sad part comes when that person makes a fool of you, when they lead you to the high cliffs of life then let you fall, when they blind fold you with all the good things life offers then all over sadden it’s all gone. It leaves you lost, makes you cry, makes you heart broken and always brings out the bitter feeling of “I wish I knew”.
Relationship is the hardest thing to try, yet it’s the only thing we can’t live without. We are relational beings and forever we will need people to be with. Someone who will listen to your hoarse voice without complains someone who will put up with all your weaknesses, someone who will keep the deepest secrets of your life and not to tell even with a bullet on their head, someone who is trust worthy. But those people are hard to find, they exist yes, but in the rare corners of this dark earth. We all want them, and when the loving master brings them our way, then life becomes complete.
But what normally changes, what makes them to just abandon us and leave, what makes your own father to turn against you and treat you like his wife, what makes that man that you placed all your trust in to become an animal. I need answers to all the life’s questions, what changes the minds of those who claim to love us. You trusted them with your life, you allowed them to lead you every step of the way, just to find out that they are not who they say they are? Just to see the monster in them? Why does God allow such people in our lives, why?
The wounds in our heart need nursing, but what happens if your night nurse, removes the mask and reveals the ghost beneath the mask, who do you run to, who do you trust to be real? No man is an island, but this is the place when you wish you will become one, this is the time you shout for independence, you long for visions about your life, and not to forget, you wish for vengeance.
As a child , you would always believe everything your dad told you, you would jump to the arms of your mum knowing she will hold you, you would cry just to get away with whatever you were hiding, you had people who lead you. Then you grew up and fell in the arms of the secret charming who know just what to say, you gave them your heart, minds, soul and not to forget the body. They use you and then let you fall. They make you feel useless and dirty; they abuse you not with words but actions, taking your trust just for a ride. Those friends that we tell everything just to come and find out that they are responsible for our miserable lives, that uncle who looks at you with evil eyes from head to toe, just to land on your innocence and take away the precious gift of purity. Who is there to trust?
Life has provided all the reasons for selfishness; life has all the convincing reasons for hatred. You are not a weirdo when you feel that someone should pay; you are not an alien to think that we should move to another planet. It’s okay to feel rage, since a broken trust is painful. But we are all human, bound to fail, or fail others, beneath every person, there is that feeling of, ‘me first’ everybody has the genes of selfishness, but it should not be an excuse for breaking hearts. We can purpose to protect lives by being trust worthy; you can be a trust worthy parent to your kids, a trustworthy partner to your spouse and a trustworthy Christian to God the father.
We are all looking for people to trust, but I guess we are just looking in the wrong places, start to focus your search towards heaven, there is a friend named Jesus, who will never let you down. What a friend we have in him, what a lover he is, the best parent anyone can ever have, the only promising arms to jump to. If we learn to trust in God with all our heart and not to lean on our own understanding, then our paths of life will be illuminated. We will see where we are heading to. If only all of us would be like Jesus then I would not be writing this blog. Can you be trusted? Are you one of those beings who allow their selfishness to exceed their humanity? Are you a heart breaker? What makes you different from the serpent who crawled in the holy gardens of Eden and brought perversion? You say you trust God; but can he trust you with his children?
Wake up let us journey on.
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